‘The Success-Oriented, Pragmatic Type: Adaptive, Excelling, Driven, and Image-Conscious’
The model of human psychology, the Enneagram. A model that describes nine fundamental personalities for those who want a basic understanding into their self-discovery. As no one is just one type, the Enneagram takes into consideration the dominant type and a ‘wing’.
I did the test late last year. My dominant type was a 3. Threes are described as adaptable, excelling, driven and image-conscience. We are goal-oriented, energetic, self-assured and driven. We are optimistic, hard-working and competitive. We desire to be valued and highly focus on being practical, sociable, competent, charismatic, a motivator and a good provider.
But on the other side our biggest fear is to be worthless. We are very self-conscience, need validation, workaholics and very difficult to read.
Yep….seems about right!
Then to really open my eyes I read about 3w2. Those that are this type are also known as ‘The Charmer’ because they often influence others around them to contribute their abilities to the world. However as aspiring as this personality type can be there comes challenges. You see, maintaining this constant need to perform is exhausting. And, as extraverted as we may seem, we wear masks extremely well. We do feel insecure and inadequate if we haven’t succeeded. No matter how success is defined being a ‘nobody’ prevents us from expressing intimacy.
As I read the results I felt exposed, vulnerable and intimidated. How could a series of questions have me figured out so well? I was captivated by the complete openness in the words and phrases. As months went by and going through my stages of self-discovery, it felt fitting to be another symbol on my body, right next to my other one. The other symbolizes “Forming an Alignment between the past, present, future”. My tattoos are becoming my stories of the stages for self-discovery. They remind me of where I came from, what I am, and what I am striving to be.
As I look up at the stars I question if I am on the right path. Some days I feel I am too exhausted or the day has been too difficult and some days I have too many options. Every experience, emotion and energy I have gained along the way has lead me to this moment. A moment that sparks my imagination and feeds my curiosity, and most of all reminds me of how much I have.
As my mum always said, never let the things you want make you forget the things you have.